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Game On

Y'all miss me?  It's been a while.  (And now I have that horrific song, "It's Been Awhile" by Staind in my head.  Mother f#$%er.) It's been a while for a couple of reasons.  One, my family and I were gallivanting around Paris for two weeks, watching Women's World Cup games, eating baguettes, sweating our asses off and making memories of a lifetime.  Two, I've been in a funk. I suffer from depression.  That's generally par for the course with stage IV cancer.  Can't say that I have ever met anyone who was diagnosed with a terminal disease who wasn't, at minimum, a little depressed.  "Stage IV, you say?  Well that's fucking fantastic!  That's the bees knees!  I'm gonna pee my pants with excitement!"  Not so much. Truth is, I was diagnosed with depression long before I was diagnosed with cancer.  I've been on meds for nearly 19 years.  I used to have really high, highs and very low, lows.  I am not bipolar, but